I decided to do this post just because I feel so amazing today. This isn’t an outfit post just a post, about me and my life. When I was younger I had a serious “awkward” phase, I always wished and hoped that I would blossom into a beautiful butterfly and be confident with who I was.
Let’s just say that didn’t happen. When I did blossom (my last year in high school) I was still a little shy about really showing who I was. I tried so hard to dress how I wanted to dress but still “fit in” and not to be to out there(yes I cared what people thought). When I went off to college I still wanted to seem “cool” shopping at stores I didn’t really care for (like stores in the mall) spending money on things that I liked but didn’t love. Believe it or not I started my blog in college during all this, I was really inspired by a blog called young, fat, and fabulous I saw her style blog and was like “I can do that” so fa la la la here we are. But I still was like, this doesn’t feel right so I still posted and realized I had a ton of other issues to deal with, it was my confidence.
People would tell me all the time how I was pretty but those words really don’t mean much if you don’t feel it yourself. So then I started a campaign called Love YOU not your body (back when this was called My Pretty Little Look Book) it was half for me and half for everyone who ever felt like I don’t know what’s wrong with me. After doing the first steps I instantly felt better and I grew to actually like myself. And that’s great but I couldn’t show off my confidence (being broke puts a damper on things). But after I my confidence boost I moved out of the city back home and got sad just because I felt I was wasting life. I had a job I hated and was still broke as hell, so around December I something ticked and I was like I gotta do this, this, and this. So I quit from the job I hated and got one that I LOVE and got a kick ass car. The more I grew personally the better I felt about me, the less I had I felt I needed an persona to show of a side of me like I am me(if you’ve been with me from the beginning you know how many names I’ve had lol). I actually would go out in public and would get mad if someone called me my actual name, I signed my name as my persona I introduced myself as my person that was me. Not any more.
Now since I have the confidence and the money I finally started wearing and acting like I wanted to. Then actually it was a few days ago I felt at home in my clothes. If you follow my instagram (KimberlyLove_) you saw those seriously ripped pants I had on a few days back. I wore them with a pair of combat boots and a tiny black cami, and sweety I live in the bible belt you don’t see to many people walking around looking like that, so when I came through I got stares even a few laughs. I started feeling myself going back then I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror in one of the stores and was like “I look so cool” and suddenly I was like this is IT this is what I love. And every since then I’ve been wearing these boots every where (except work). I feel like I should have been dressing like this all along I love my dark make up I love the boots, I love wearing black, and I love wearing almost nothing but boots or even covering up (like today). I don’t feel like I need to be perfect or even the prettiest girl in the room I just gotta be me. I writing this for anyone who was in my situation or currently going through it. It does get better you will start to feel at home in your body if you just Embrace your Ugly, Embrace who you are. If you feel like you should be a girl or a guy or your rocker not prep even if you’re not that stylish but you love your style. Just be you, you’re going to find your way one day. It won’t be easy, there’s going to be a lot of tears but at the end it’s worth it. Just remember life is a journey not a destination.