It’s kind of like that when you go from single to a relationship. You envision something amazing that can last forever then you remember, you’re stuck with this person.You in it for better or for worse just less paper work if you decide to leave. Some days, like any other thing you’ve made a commitment to, you really just want to say fuck it. As far as my relationship goes days like those have been coming around a little more often then I like. Like the spark is gone, romance is dead. The passion I felt when we were just “dating’, if you could call it that, is gone. I feel like we’re in a rut. It’s not the fact that we never go out. It’s just when we do see each other we don’t do anything romantic. We don’t even get dressed to see each other, I’m talking we wear T-shirts and jeans, anything else it’s kind of like ‘where you going?’. The most we do smoke, maybe go to the movies. No oo no ah, just blah. I’m not that type of person. I like to go out and be social and do stuff. So what’s a girl to do? It’s not like you could actually go and do things you did when you were single, and being single for as long as I was, that’s kind of all you know. So yeah,I’m really rusty at this whole relationship thing. It could be that this maybe something I didn’t even want,I just expected after the length that we were involved I just expected us to be there already. But when I think about leaving him, I literally can feel my heart start breaking.
Maybe it’s time I bring him out and stop trying to live this single life, and accept the fact that ‘Hey, you’re in a relationship.’ But it doesn’t really feel like I am, we don’t do relationship-y things. I could try what my friend does and bring him out with me maybe out to dinner then a nice lounge or club which I would love, but it’s not something I really comfortable while being out on the town, I’m used to being hot and single, not attractive and taken. Maybe I’m just a single girl at heart. How do I get the single in me to become the relationship girl that I really am?